so many stinky people

i LOVE ya!

hee

over 4000 hits.

and no

the new site won't help you with your stinky vagina either...

for one week only...

while i'm starting the new blog and still getting hits here the new address is

the new and improved "smells like fish"

taking a break

i'm going to let this blog rest for awhile.

i'm sad to do this but i just feel like even my own posts are dragging me down and what i really want to do is start having fun again and i just don't feel like i can do that here.

so, there's an email address over there to the side if you want the new url. now don't all of you at once email i've only got like 2 gig of space in that account...

heh

starting to feel saucy already...

so long and thanks for all the fish

i'm having a debate with myself right now if i want to keep this blog. i like having it. i like having this space. i like writing what i want and just putting it out there. i love that i get hits for people looking for solutions to their stinky vaginas and that it never occured to me that titling my blog "smells like fish" would bring all those hits. i get such a kick out of it. but i'm also sad when i look at this blog because so much of the last 2 years is on it. and i can't read any of my old posts without crying and i hate it because it makes me feel stupid. and i get sad because the url for this page is based on a term of endearment from someone i care about deeply. and i thought i was going along fine. i thought i was feeling better and then something always happens to remind you you're not ok. and i realize i'm never going to get the explanation that was promised, i'm never going to understand it so i'm never going to have the closure i need from them so i have to do it myself. and if i have to do it myself i don't see a friendship coming out of the end of it and it breaks my heart. stupid lesbians. this is twice now i've fallen in love with a close friend and twice the relationship didn't work out and now i have no friend either. and it's just hard to try to write about some stupid funny shit that i had knocking around in my brain when i come here and i just get sad.

not to be all dramatic (but i'm a dyke so i guess it's inherent) i'm just typing this out to see how i feel about it. so who knows what will happen. i'm here at my best friend's house and they left for thanksgiving so i have the place to myself so i may just get drunk bbq'ing my steak for thanksgiving and P.W.I. (post while intoxicated) and forget that i said all this until i wake up to go to work on saturday. she wanted me to go with them. and normally i do spend thanksgiving with them because they are the family i joined because mine sucks so bad but i said i don't think i'll be that much fun to be around so i'll just stay here.

new watch

normally i'm not the kind of girl that partakes in retail therapy but i had been feeling down the last couple of weeks and when i went in to target to buy sweats (functional for working out in freezing cold dark mornings) and walked out with a mini-leatherman, the L-word second season on DVD and the piece de resistance a kickass watch.

it was weird because i NEVER spend money on myself and it took me awhile to take it in and think about why and i realized that for a long time i had been spending any of my extra spending (not that there's ever a lot) on someone else. and now that that won't be happening anymore i didn't feel so guilty about buying these cool things for myself.

and since i was bragging about how hot the watch looks on me i've been instructed i have to put up or shut up so
here it is in front of some bad hotel art. i took this pic before i bought some gorgeous silver rings and chain just this weekend in monterey so they're not in there but they're hot too.

NOW i must stop spending money. outa control freak i am

dirty pigs

you gotta love em

my aunt found out she had jury duty so all her co-workers put together a "jury duty survival kit" together for her.
just a little light reading in case she gets bored...









this one especially cracked me up because they had actually made a little pop-up of the dick.

it's always good

that if you go away out of town for a conference and you know there will be lots and lots of drinking to give the people you know you're going to drunk dial a heads up. that way they can start drinking too.

heh

just saw this on yahoo news

and YES I HAVE BEEN WORKING!!!!

GAH!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20051114/ap_on_re_as/japan_quake

not to totally diminish the scariness and horror of being in a tsunami, but, um, 12" waves!!!?? i'm shaking in my fake-y payless doc martens!!!

"A 12-inch tsunami wave hit the city of Ofunato, and two 4- to 8-inch waves generated by the quake struck two other towns in the area, the agency said. Tsunami waves — those generated by earthquakes — are often barely noticeable in the ocean but can rise to great heights once they arrive at shore. There were no immediate reports of damage."

what you do when you're really supposed to be working

so i have a major grant proposal due tomorrow. a potentially life altering grant.

due tomorrow.

but look at what i'm doing instead

so i'm sure many of you might be slightly aware, most likely through your own keen observation skills, that i LOVE blue.

LOVE IT. favoritest color ever.

but i've found lately that i'm being drawn to the rich red fall colors that are popping up around here.

at the farm the leaves are turning color

i just loved the high contrast between the deep red and the green grass

i expected hobbits to come out and greet me =)

i haven't had a pomegranate since i was a little kid and so when i was the store with my best friend i grabbed one up. and when i busted it open i was just so enthralled with its color. just so beautiful and for some reason deeply sensual.
i love the deep red color but then also the slight transluscence of the fruit. you could never create a paint or a color that could duplicate it. you could probably go to home depot and buy something striking called pomegranate but it wouldn't have the richness, the depth, the jewel-like beauty of the fruit.




i wasn't going to post this one because when i pulled it up in photoshop the foreground was blurry but then i was struck by the background. i actually took these on top of my car and i was so focused on the pomegranate that i wasn't paying attention to background. but when i saw it i liked it alot. it looks surreal to me.

last week i heard my sister and gran pull the car into the garage and get out. and then start yelling and screaming and COMPLETELY freaking out and gran ordeing my sister to "KILL IT!! JUST KILL IT!!." i came out to see what the hell all the fuss was. it was this:




and just to put it all into perspective, so you can understand exactly WHY they were freaking out here's this:


freaks